I woke up this morning… the last day of 2018… in surrender. In surrender to the fact that I do not have it all together… that my way is full of flaws… that I am not in control of my life.
When I take off the rose-colored glasses I’m told to view my life through, I see that I am only one man who’s trying to build a house in a landscape full of skyscrapers. As humble as that may sound… it’s all for naught, as the ground on which it is built… is all shifting sand.
‘The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever.‘ -1 John 2:17
I have so much to be thankful for: my health, two awesome boys, family and friends who love me, a business that has survived (17 years now) through thick and thin, a home to call my own… but most importantly… I have the knowledge and acceptance of a God who loves me… a God who knit me together in my mother’s womb… a God who answers when I call.
Looking back… I realize now how much of my ‘calling on Him’ has been for the things I have wanted… for the things that I thought I have needed… but, what I was really wanting and what I was truly needing was to hear from Him the ‘calling on my life’.
I’ve spent so many years trying to satiate desires that I’ve gleaned along the landscape of man’s reaching creations: money, things, drugs & alcohol, ungodly relationships, etc… all the while, not fully recognizing I was being duped by counterfeit sources of joy and satisfaction. All these things (for the sake of themselves) lead to death… because they ALL have an ending point. There is no ‘reverse half-life’ for these things in which we live to measure when they have increased by half on a continual basis until the halving becomes so full that we say, ‘I’ve arrived… my life is complete… I have no more desires to fulfill.’ I’m sorry to have to be the one to tell you… but, those credits (in and of themselves) won’t transfer to the afterlife. (refer to 1 John 2:17 above). The only way for something to have real significance… to have lasting meaning… is for it be OF and FOR God and His kingdom that is eternal. Period. End of story.
So, I ask myself… I ask YOU… what is it God is calling us to do? I don’t know about you… but, I want to stop chasing after the ‘temporary feel goods’… and search mightily for what God has created me to do… for that which will carry me past the gates of hell… and keep me on the path lit by the eternal presence of God. Until then, we will never have true, lasting peace… peace that only HE can give… a peace that will guide us into eternity.
‘Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.‘ -Isaiah 43-18-19
Happy hunting… and happy new year 🙂